Ain't it a Kick to Your Head/Holiday Blues

Sorry to be a downer at this time of year but I shut myself off my Fb account because I just could not take IT any more. What is it? I have no idea, maybe it was the fact that I was stuck in my house for twelve days in a row without even a hour break. Break did I say? Start to feel a little shut in and like the only child, yep you bet your life. Do not get me wrong my brother leads a stressful life as it is but not even his wife could take being in a house for twelve days. I was doing it while taking care of my mother, which was fine at the beginning but come day eight I was getting bitter.

He had time off from work the week of Thanksgiving and took that time to himself. I do not blame him he works hard and deserves time off, if any  man does I will say it is my brother. So here is the deal I already have the blues from hearing mom say "Well maybe I just won't be here next week when he comes to visit". She has been saying this for a while but know the time is coming closer and did I mention it was twelve days in a row. It would have been fourteen but he came over with his wife when I went to the Dr. on Tues.

If there is one thing I have it is good Dr.s I tell them everything and they listen. Well my Dr. was on vacation and his partner who sees me for other reasons took me in for the day. I explained what I was going through and in his thoughtfulness he changed my medications. One of the reasons I am able to write this journal now, if it were not for my medications I would have been a screaming banshee at my brother. I hate to even think how I would have treated my mother. One of the unfortunate things was the Dr. changed and gave me some new medications. One I had a reaction to and will discuss with my Dr. the next time I see him, which should be around Christmas time.

For my normal journal readers you will know I am always going to say something off the wall and this time is no different. I am born on Christmas Day taking care of my dying mother if there was ever a reason to stay on my medications She is the reason. I know this will be her last Christmas. There are other people get who get so depressed this time of year, just remember the Holidays end and those who enjoyed it are okay and we who are having a hard time will also be okay. It might not be the most wonderful time of the year, so call it Winter and then there are people who like to freeze their butts off to light up their house. I thank those people for putting some colour into my Winter this year.